the moments when castiel fell in love (S15x18 Spoilers)

 for all of you who are lifelong and die hard fans of the show Supernatural you guys should know that the show is finally saying it's goodbye's we have only 1 episode left until the end so I found that this is a good time to post a new entry. This Entry has spoilers for the end of the episode Despair so if you haven't watched it just yet I would Highly recommend you do before you read this. Supernatural is a show that Debuted on the CW Channel on September 13th 2005 at that time most of us were in either Elementary or Junior High. I was in Junior high when I first watched it my best friend at the time introduced it to me. the show is mainly about 2 brothers taking on the family business after a tragic accident and their Adventures beyond their wildest Imagination Along the way they would meet new friends and reunite with family who would help them in their Quest. the Quest that I had Mentioned was revealed to be Destiny and that they were born in a world of the Supernatural a world that has all kinds of mythological monsters and Biblical reality. Sam William and Dean Winchester took on this business together after the passing of Mom and dad Mary and John not knowing that their parents were caught up in a Supernatural mess way before they were born. this all started since Baby Sam was drinking demon blood in order of a great plan that was revealed in season 2. 

                                   

I wont be talking about the show as a whole. Today I want to talk about the character Castiel he is played by Actor Misha Collins. Castiel is an Angel who's host body is Jimmy Novak and is a farther of wayward sister Claire. Castiel's first Appearance was the first episode of season 4 and had become a close Allie turned friend of Sam and dean and over time became their family. I found this video on you tube I think all of you Destiel Shippers would go head over heels for I know I have and I'm so Obessesd over it. Look up the title Castiel confesses to dean 5x18 Despair Supernatural (full Scene it's happening) on you tube and you will see what I mean. in case everyone is confused and Dont know what I am breaking down look at the title for this entry the video explains that Castiel is in love with Dean and I will be explaining the moments in the video that suggested on exactly when did Castiel feel this way so let's get into it. 

here is a Quote from Misha from an interview about his reaction and I definitely agree with him on who Castiel is and he definitely deserves a happy end instead of a sad one I do agree with some of you fans that they cant just kill him off just yet at least we have until the final episode to know if sure if he and Dean will come back to each other so dean can say those 3 words back

 watching Cas talk to Dean, I got lost in the story and forgot for a moment that I'm the one who plays that angel and I thought, 'He's how I want to be. He's openhearted and he's selfless and he's true'"

 

Castiel has admitted that he has always been in love there is no doubt that fans has been on this since his first appearance on our screens and I am surprised that the creators and showrunners actually listened and went through with this. it's a will they wont they Scenario if they decide to have dean and Castiel kiss and I'm definitely here for it if not that's ok at least we got a confession I always knew it would be Cas to finally say it and break first. with that said here are some Quotes I wrote down on my phone that I definitely want to explore. 

"what my true Happiness could even look like I never found an answer because the one thing I want Something I know I cant have"

from this quote here I found quite interesting he admits that dean has always been the one person who makes him truly happy so basically his true happiness is him and dean together. Castiel admits that he did not find any answers if there was a true happiness for him in the end and to be quite honest he definitely does deserve true happiness. Cas even says he knew that he could not possibly have dean as a romantic partner mainly because it was never in a Angels nature to fall in love with  humanity 1 angel did say that castiel has to much heart and was getting to close to the humans in his charge so it makes sense on why Cas would say this. 

                 "I know how you see yourself you see yourself the same way our enemies see you     

     this Quote here got me curious so I kind of know what Castiel was getting at when he said this. Angels are depicted to be just as bad as demons. Demons are an Angels greatest enemy so when Cas said this I was brought back to something I remembered watching from the show. the enemy's that Sam and Dean had to fight definitely had a hand in Cas and dean being together. Cas had mentioned that dean see's himself in a way that the enemies do broken destructive angry and that his dad is his blood instrument. I'm guessing the Enemies see this as Dean's weakness and use it against him but he always gets right back up and keeps fighting. Balthazar had even quoted that "you got me confused with the other angel you know the one in the dirty trench coat whos in love with you" a lot of enemies would pit them against each other but it does not stick. Crowley has even described Castiel as Dean's boyfriend. to explain this as a whole I feel that Cas would have said something to dean along time ago but did not want to say anything because he did not want their enemies to be right about their soon to be relationship.

                                                         "Everyone you know see's it"

this Quote was interesting to me when Castiel said this I felt that everyone and not just Sam see's the broken Angry and destructive that Dean was described as because it's true Dean is all of those things when he wants to be but what he doesn't know is that it effects everyone he knows and loves. for example the people who has seen this would be Claire Jodie Charlie and Bobby to name a few. Dean's Anger Brokenness and Destructive ways has impacted them in a way that changed the course of their lives forever so it makes sense for Cas to point this out when Dean did not know it at first of what his actions can do to the people he cares for.

    "ever since we met since I pulled you out of hell knowing you has changed me because you cared"

the first episode of the 4th season was Castiel's first Appearance on screen since his mention in a spell book from season 3. when Castiel mentioned his first time meeting Dean he said that it changed him in a good way. from what we knew about Angels before season 4 was that they were complete opposite's of demons and that their ways seem to be Demonic in a sense that could be just as Destructive as their true form which is why both Demon's and Angels need a host body to shield human eyes in a way of protecting them. even though we knew nothing of Cas at the time and his backstory. the show had showed that Cas would eventually become the Angel we know now. and it was his journey from a mystery demon angel to beautiful and loving that we all know now from the video that Dean was always the person he wanted to be with but did not want to start caring about something that his siblings would warn him not to get to close but he did and we would not change it just for a second. dean Cared about something but did not know what would it be it was Castiel and he changed him for the better seeing that his old life is better off dead and buried.  


                                          " but I cared about the whole world because of you"

 this is the last quote I will be breaking down Cas had said that dean made him see the world in a new light in the show it was implied that Angels did not care or even feel anything about humanity but thanks to dean and over time Cas was able to learn to Care for not just Humanity but also an entire world he said to Sam that his old self would have killed Sam with that needle in his hand but he did not do it because why Dean happened I guess every thing comes back to dean since Cas had said that they share a more profound bond. Dean had even referenced the way that Cas would look at him that he would get laid after. it makes sense why dean would clarify this as getting laid because he knew that Cas wanted that so badly to Clarify if he did have feelings it also makes sense why Cas did not go along with this because he was clearly not ready and it was not the perfect time for him to admit it quite yet.

  so I hope you enjoyed my entry I am definitely one of those fans who is a die hard destiel shipper so I would definitely suggest cross your fingers and hope Cas will be back for the final episode enjoy the last 2 episodes while you can I cant wait on what the cast will be up to next good luck to all the actors and I hope to see you soon. I love you!